Archive for May, 2010

May 18, 2010

The best thing about today was I realized why we are so unhappy

You may be wondering like I am – what is morally right about this economy?

For example my parents were the epitome of financial self reliance. They were frugal, well cheap, they saved, they didn’t waste and paid all their bills. What they sacrificed was deep and sad. They were conflicted people, who wanted to enjoy the fruits of being good but instead became stuck in the hazy world of long hours of alcohol consumption. My parents are functional alcoholics who did everything right according to our economic gods, but were miserable in their lives.

My mom did the right thing and stayed at home mostly with six of us. It was a terrible life for her, 10 pregnancies, four miscarriages and a profoundly disabled child, Sally Ann, who died at five in an institution. Mom never got to college but she wrote all my Dads major papers for his degrees, a BA in teaching PE and an MA in counseling. She was a writer intermittently but kept falling back into her pattern of doing the right thing and that fed her addiction. She was not happy and died suddenly of what I believe was an alcohol induced aneurysm.

My Dad is the super miserly saver guy who has more money than he can spend in good conscience now. Instead of enjoying his life since my mom has passed he has ended up supporting two of my brothers who are addicted to crack. He can save money but is mired in his own alcoholism and co-dependency with adult children.

They did everything right, got married, worked hard, had a big family, went to church, saved, but it didn’t get them the one thing that we all need to really live. Happiness.

That is why I do everything wrong. I want to be happy don’t you?

May 4, 2010

OIL spill hate

It is May 4th,  a few days since the BP oil rig in the Gulf of Mexico blew up. Now it looks like we could be facing one of the most horrible environmental crises of our generation. In fact it could be the end of us – if the oceans die we surely will die also. How does that make me feel? I’m fucking pissed. Watching corporate America fuck up the world is just the last straw.

In case you didn’t notice the corps as I’ll refer to them have already collapsed the economy once this decade. They have no values, no sense of responsibility, no accountability and now nowhere to go. Yet they are allowed to go on business as usual. This may collapse New Orleans, and other areas of the Gulf that depend on fishing and tourism. Who wants to go to an oily beach? What are people who’ve spent their whole lives living off of the ocean supposed to do?

So the oil gas and financial corps have kept renewable energy technologies from getting the funding they need so we can keep pumping. We must demand that they change now – We must change now! @#$%!!!!